ang bilis ng panahon...yung last na entry ko dito yung bago ako magstart ng work sa oakwood...ngayon malapit na ko mag-end saka lang ulit ako nakapag-update. hanggang end of this month na lang ako dun, dapat nga til july 13 lang ako. naextend ako til end of this month bilang konswelo de bobo or most probably kaylangan pa nila ako.

sayang, akala ko magiging probi na ako..maski na telephone operator lang yun, sobrang magandang opportunity na yun para sa isang newly grad tulad ko. stepping stone ko na sana yun dahil mas madali na magmove sa isang organization basta maregular ka.

para kaming sinampal sa mukha...dalawa na kaming casual sa telex. pareho na naming kayang gawin ang trabaho ng regular employees. meron na kaming silent understanding na isa sa amin ang makukuha at okay lang yun. umasa kaming pareho, umasa ako na ako ang makukuha. but no! iba ang kinuha..bakit? hindi namin alam at hindi ko maintindihan..ayoko sanang maging bitter sa oakwood na hindi ako yung nakuha sa probationary position pero I can't help it lalo na at alam kong deserving ako sa position. I wish they will explain to us kung bakit ganun ang kinalabasan ng mga pangyayari. kaylangan kong malaman kung pano sila nagcome up with that decision.

kaya eto ako ngayon, malapit na maging bum ulet. naghahanap na naman ng panibagong trabaho. ang hirap... iniisip ko nga minsan na umuwi na lang sa nueva..at least dun kasama ko ang mommy ko hindi tulad ng andito ko nagpapakakuba sa trabaho, nagtitiis sa maliit na sweldo at madalang ko pa makasama ang pamilya ko.

pero iniisip ko din, susuko na ba ako agad sa laban? parang mawawalan naman ng silbi ang pagpapakahirap ng mommy ko na mapag-aral ako sa UP kung hindi ako magsusucceed dito. I owe it to my mom to succeed..I cannot give up...

whew! after long months of hibernating i'm finally back! hehe..pero not for long kasi feeling ko mawawalan na ulit ako ng time mag-internet. guess why?

......jan-ja-ra-ran!!!

may trabaho na ako! woohoo!

yup, natanggap ako as telephone operator sa oakwood. ang bilis nga eh. last monday lng ako nagpasa ng resume tapos ininterview ako ng tuesday sa HR tpos nung FO manager. feeling ko nga hnd na ako matatanggap dahil mas gusto nila yung wala ng iintindihin sa school. pero luckily, tinawagan nila ako ulit for final interview nung wednesday sa HR director nmn. tpos nung thursday umattend n ako ng new employees orientation. naks naman! feel na feel ah! hehe but since this week pa ang start ng training ko, umuwi muna ako sa nueva ecija dahil alam kong matatagalan bago ko ulit makita ang aking lupang sinilangan. at saka umuwi din kasi yung pinsan ko from dubai so gusto ko na din siya iwelcome. ayun nga, lumuwas na din ako nung sunday to prepare myself mwehehe..chorva lng yun. actually, inasikaso ko yung mga pre-employment requirements like nbi mayor's permit, health certificate at nbi clearance. speaking of nbi clearance, hagard pala kumuha nyan! grabe, buong maghapon akong pumila. yun bang nakabilad ka sa araw at wala talagang upuan tapos ten years talaga bago umusod ung pila. hay! buti na lang hindi masyadong matindi ang sikat ng araw kundi susumpungin tiyak ako ng migraine. finally, ang kulang ko na lang ay ang makati police clearance dahil hindi na pala sa city hall yun kinukuha dahil may bago n daw police station near ayala. bongga! nwei, hnd ko pa alam kung kelan ako makakakuha basta within 2 weeks dapat.

hagard din ang duty ko sa training. tom 4pm-12mn ang duty ko. kaylangan ko kasi daanan lahat ng shift: 6am-2pm, 8am-4pm, 2pm-10pm at 4pm-12 mn. tpos sabi nila hnd ka nmn makakaalis ng 12mn sakto dahil minsan madami tumatawag. hay, katakot! dito pa nmn ako sa up vill umuuwi. pinag-iisipan ko nga kung lilipat ako sa makati or someplace nearby kaso ang mahal nmn ng rent. ubos din ang sweldo ko.

speaking of sweldo, hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa alam kung magkano ang kikitain ko dito sa trabaho na ito. malamang minimum wage lang tapos kakaltasan ka pa ng SSS, pag-ibig, taxes at kung anu ano pang contributions. naks! spoken like a true employee. hehe

nwei, sana makayanan ko ang bagong challenge na ito. wish me luck guys!

ang kapal ng mukha ko, wala pa din akong practicum report hanggang ngayon. malapit na ang deadline. huhu..at malapit na din ang language proficiency exam hindi pa ako nag-aaral.

about my lovelife naman, masaya pa din ang buhay.=) malapit na kami magsix months! weehee! akalain nyo? madami din siguro ang magugulat na nakaabot na kami ng ganun katagal. well..=) sobrang thankful ako kay jeff for being so understanding sa mga panahong absentee girlfriend ako dahil sa practicum. at sa pagtulong nya sa akin sa bawat errand na kaylangan ko sa school. as in sobrang thanks! wag ka sana magsawa hehe..masungit lang talaga ako pero love na love kita..mushy!hehe

sa mga friends ko jan, sori kung hindi ako nakakapagparamdam. basta tandaan nyo lang na kaibigan nyo pa rin ako. kung may problema kayo text nyo lang ako. baka lang hnd ako makareply kaagad dahil bawal celfone sa oakwood hehe..basta if you need help sabihan nyo lang ako and i'll try my best to help you. mwah! god bless us all.=)

...all endings are also beginnings. we just don't know it at the time...

...heaven can be found in the most unlikely corners...

...there are no random acts. that we are all connected. that you can no more separate one life from another thatn you can separate a breeze from the wind...

...fairness does not govern life and death. if it did, no good person would ever die young...

...why people gather when others die? why people feel they should? it is because the human spirit knows, deep down, that all lives intersect. that death doesn't just take someone, it misses someone else, and in the small distance between being taken and being missed, lives are changed...

...strangers are just family you have yet to come to know...

...no life is a waste. the only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone...

...that's what heaven is. you get to make sense of your yesterdays...

...sacrifice is a part of life. sometimes when you sacrifice something precious, you're not really losing it. you're just passing it on to someone else...

...holding anger is a poison. it eats you from inside. we think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. but hatred is a curved blade. and the harm we do, we do to ourselves...

...love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. but sometimes, under the angry heat of life, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive...

...lost love is still love. it takes a different form, that's all. you can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. but when those senses weaken, another heightens. memory. memory becomes your partner. you nurture it. you hold it. you dance with it. life has to end, love doesn't...

...secret of heaven: each affects the other and the other affects the next, and the world is full of stories, but the stories are all one...

...stay insane but behave like normal people. run the risk of being different but learn to do so without attracting attention.

...everyone is indeed crazy, but the craziest are the ones who don't know they're crazy; they just keep repeating what others tell them to.

...each human being is unique, each with their own qualities, instincts, forms of pleasure and desire for adventure. however, society always imposes on us a collective way of behaving and people never stop to wonder why they should behave like that.

...many people don't allow themselves to love, precisely because there are lots of things at risk--a lot of future and a lot of past. a few brave and lucky ones deviate because they possess the heart that chooses to live the present.

hindi ko pala naikwento na nagpunta kmi ni wean (my thesis partner) sa bohol last august 28 until august 31. we are doing a research about wastewater disposal practices in selected beach resorts in panglao, bohol. ang tanong nyo siguro bakit ang layo naman ng napili naming thesis? kasi triggered siya nung nangyari sa boracay. gusto kasi namin na yung research namin ay relevant.

ang ganda ganda sa bohol! ang ganda ng mga beaches nila, white sand! sana makabalik ako dun as a tourist na talaga at sana maenjoy ko na ang beaches nila. kaso lang baka matagalan pa ulit yun dahil ang mahal ng pamasahe at saka syempre mas mahal na talaga ang gastos pag tourist ka na. nakakahiya naman kung makikitira ulit kami sa bahay nila janssen (bf ni cee na friend ko sa dorm, both from bohol).

nakakita na ako ng tarsier at nahawakan ko pa. ang cute cute nila! ang sarap nilang hawakan. nakapagcruise din kami sa loboc river at nakaligo pa sa falls. nagpunta din kami sa hinagdanan cave. hindi lang namin naavail ang chocolate hills dahil malayo at ska wla na rin kaming time. next tym tlg pag nakbalik ako sa bohol kaylangan mapuntahan ko na ang mga lugar na namiss ko.

pagbalik ko nman d2 sa manila dapat papasok pa ako sa 128 kaso nadelay kasi flight namin for 1 hr so late na din ako tapos nakatulog pa ako kila wean kaya hindi n talaga ako nakapasok. nung hapon naman overnyt kmi kila jac dahil gumawa kami ng presentation pra sa 190. haggard ang buhay! kumusta naman yung isang linggo ako hindi nakatulog sa bed ko? kaya siguro ako nagkasakit eh. natatakot nga ako baka mamya dengue na toh pero feeling ko hnd naman dahil mejo ok na ako ngayon at ska nag-off lotion naman kmi habang nadun kmi ni wean sa bohol.

maraming salamat nga pala sa nag-alaga sa akin habang mataas ang aking lagnat. salamat sa pagbili ng gamot at sa pagbili din ng kool-fever. hindi ko yun makakalimutan.=)

matagal tagal na rin palang wala akong update dito sa blog about my personal life. wala lang, ang dami dami kasing nangyayari sa buhay at wala na akong time para maikwento ko ng matino. at saka hindi ko rin alam kung pano ko ikukwento but if you're paying close attention to this blog you must have seen the hints i've given in my recent posts. sabi ko dati na happy ang buhay di ba? yes, happy ang buhay ko ngayon because of a very special person. and sobrang thankful ako sa kanya for bringing back the sunshine into my life, for taking taking care of me, for loving me and for simply being there. corny na kung corny pero totoo yun.

alam ko magtatampo kayo mga friends kasi hindi ako nagkukwento, sorry for being so secretive but there's a reason for everything. in due time malalaman nyo rin lahat. please bear with me. at saka sa mga nakakaalam or may nararamdaman na, please keep it to yourselves muna. yun lang naman yung favor na hinihingi ko. i want this to be as intimate as possible. this is really special for me and i don't want too many people meddling in our relationship. naiintindihan nyo naman yun di ba?

to DB's, kita kits sa next session! *wink*

...sometimes you get no second chance and that it's best to accept the gifts the world offers you.

...no one owns anything, everything is an illusion...anyone who has lost something they thought was theirs forever finally comes to realize that nothing really belongs to them.

...i can choose either to be a victim of the world or an adventurer in search of treasure. it's all a question of how i view my life.

...life is a fast, dizzying game; life is a parachute jump; it's taking chances, falling over and getting up again; it's mountaineering; it's wanting to get to the very top of yourself and to feel angry and dissatisfied when you don't manage it.

..in the search for happiness we are all equal.

...people talk as if they knew everything, but if you dare to ask a question, they don't know anything.

...freedom only exists when love is present. the person who gives him or herself wholly, the person who feels freest, is the person who loves most wholeheartedly. and the person who loves wholeheartedly feels free.

...in love, no one can harm anyone else; we are each of us responsible for our own feelings and cannot blame someone else for what we feel.

...the true experience of freedom: having the most important thing in the world without owning it.

...the great aim of every human being is to understand the meaning of total love. love is not to be found in someone else, but in ourselves; we simply awaken it. but in order to do that, we need the other person. the universe only makes sense when we have someone to share our feelings with.

..really important meetings are planned by the souls long before the bodies see each other.

...the most important experiences a man can have are those that take him to the very limit; that is the only way we learn, because it requires all our courage.

...the strongest love is the love that can demonstrate its fragility.

...when i had nothing to lose, i had everything. when i stopped being who i am, i found myself.

...life is too short, or too long, for me to allow myself the luxury of living it so badly.

...certain things cannot be shared. nor can we be afraid of the oceans into which we plunge of our own free will; fear cramps everyone's style. amn goes through hell in order to understand this. love one another, but let's not try to possess one another.

siyeet! grad pictorial na bukas at wala man lang akong preparation na ginagawa. hindi man lang ako nagpagupit ng buhok. hindi man lng ako nakapagmanicure..gosh! wala pa din akong napagdedecide-an na creative shot ko..siyet tlg!

dapat maganda ako bukas dahil grad pic ang usapan dito. yung tipong ipapakita mo sa kaapu-apuhan mo. dapat sasabihin nila wow lola ang ganda mo pala talaga nyahaha! bilang isang banidosa yun talaga naiisip ko.

seriously kinakabahan ako pra sa grad pic ko tom. sana maganda naman yung mga kuha ko. jusko! P2250 yta ang babayaran ko dun noh.

dapat magbeauty rest ako ngayon din!=) kwentuhan ko na lang kayo next tym kung ano nangyari.

nga pala, happy talaga ang buhay! *wink*

happy, shalala
it's so nice to be happy shalala...

hehe..wala lang..happy ang buhay lately.=)

successful ang "project" hehe...err...not quite pala but almost..may ilang glitches na lang na kaylangang ayusin hehe

happy!=)